Spontaneousnessity

I was out with a friend of mine having fun and stuff, it was a good fine day when suddenly out of nowhere I get a phone call from my grandma's house, it felt as if I got a call from a haunted house or something, I regret saying that but I haven't seen nor heard from these people in about 2 years, yeah we got few family issues that drove us apart, nothing personal I just hate visiting that house.. bad memories, I don't want to dig into that now check this out, I answer and it's my grandma on the other "ha Sponty! tawalty shino menty yaya?" (you took so long, aren't you comming over?) .. I doze off for a second thinking .. huh!! when did I ever speak to her! when did I say I was comming over! I haven't spoken to her in so long!! it hit me then .. "hala yumma ee walla nawya bs ensheghalt shwaya.. 3asa ma shar?" (yeah I planned to come I got a little busy, is everything okay?) she asks if this is Sponty, I say yes of course, "ee 3ayal ana dagga il raqm 3adl, yalla mo moshkela inshalla yom thani?" (yeah so I dailed the right number, no problem maybe some other day?) I confirm and hung up.. I drove passing wherever I was supposed to be going, I couldn't help but think what made my grandmother think I called her, who called her that she thought it was me!?? my friend suggested maybe she had a dream! okay maybe! but still! I called my cousin and ask if she calls since she's the only one in town, she says she never did but now that I brought it up maybe she should, .. I kept on thinking.. I thought of how much I miss my other grandmother, my long gone sweet adorable grandmother, the one with the fun jokes and the cutest laugh.. April this year she'll be gone for 10 years, how much I miss her! okay maybe this one is not as much fun but.. she really is adorable, and when you really think of it.. I mean.. yeah.. whatever... ...

I asked my friend to change plans "I really have to pass by my grandma's just say hi and leave" my friend was very supportive, so 20 mins later am at her house, I find my grandpa who's not all there sadly, with my uncle, I walk in say hi and my grandpa finding dificulties recognizing who I was, when he know who I was he had a smile on his face and asked me where the hell have I been all these years, I of course was speechless, I blame it on my busy life, ay busy ay bateekh I was out having fun!! I hated myself that moment, I think it showed, I jump to the point and ask about my grandma.. "she went to bed" my uncle said, "I just spoke to her less than half an hour ago! amdaaha?" "she takes pills" I felt great disappointment, I asked him to let her know that I passed by and I really wanted to see her, inshalla tomorrow I'll pass by again, I leave her place and I don't know what is this feeling I have, I mean I really really feel bad, at the same time am thankful that it's not too late, it could have been!

is that the wake up call?? it's actually is a wake up call! what is behind this thing!? why me?! whatever it was, I repeat myself over and over againg.. am thankful for it...