Rien d'especial.. relax, kick back & feel at ease *^_^*
OK so like a couple of days ago or maybe even weeks I was like oh I don't feel well I feel awful I feel sick blaa blaa blaa.. I hate when I a7en! when I nag that is, but I can't help but otherwise lately!! sayra 7anna!! 7anna ley darajat ini a3el roo7y! isn't it .. I don't know what it is!?
I do feel better I mean am not sick anymore or anything but I feel SO DEPRESSED!!!! and am sick of being depressed! 7alaw oho! enough is enough!
and hey! chocolate? didn't work, gym? not that either, going out? driving long distance? singing and dancing? scream into a pillow? HELLO! those are advices "I" usually give! now am suffering and can't even help myself out!! I became so so so negative! am so hurt and different, I try not to show it sometimes but hey who am I kidding! I hate being spontaneous, I want to feel better..
I miss my friends, I miss my cousin, I miss having true real friends who are ACTUALLY there for me! who would ACTUALLY give their time just to listen to my gibberish! even if they don't get a word I say yet they know me blabing will eventually make me feel better! I miss having a shoulder to cry on, I miss telling stuff without being ashamed of and then they point the funny sides of those stuff and make me laugh at them, I try to make it up for myself, I try to keep myself busy, I try to go out, I try and I try and I try and I will get through I know I will!! I just don't know when..
aaaaahhhh.. oh well thanx for your time, I guess I'll go kill myself now, see ya.
I hope this kitty is just relaxed and not dead!